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[On July 1st, after a visit to the amusement park with some of her family, [1] Kami of Love has a very puzzled Starnet post to make. Truthfully, she's been troubled for a while now. The vibe of the Fallen Stars has been very strange and the previous month was oddly taxing. Now the mirrors are talking.]

Hello, Fallen Stars. This is Kuroneko Satou, you Kami of Love, speaking!

I may have to ask that you all avoid this 'MirrorMe Castle' attraction at the amusement park for a while. I promise to have the issue sorted out promptly. But it seems like there is a troubled spirit there, who may need help. Last month was probably real hard on you all, so please take it easy! I'll figure it out in a jiffy!

Oh and uh.

This is so weird and left field, but...

Any parents here? I

I'm fine.

I have a weird question about raising kids from other dimensions and timelines.

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[ Rest assured, she stared at this one for a l o n g time before she went ahead and replied to it. ]

That's a really specific question, isn't it?

It's sort of a specific problem, I guess...

Not sure if anyone can relate.

[ There's another long pause, just long enough that it might seem like she's not going to reply at all.

But then: ]

It isn't something I really want to show off about in public, but you're not the only one at least.

Oh? Really?

I'm not sure what to say uh

It's a bit rough? Not that I don't love my boys, just

I missed so much of their lives, you know?

I can understand that. When I first saw mine, I didn't even recognize him. It'd been so long, he'd gone and grown up and it took me a second to realize who he was. That's awful, right?

But because of how much time I've missed... we could be siblings, or even classmates because of how close in age we are.

I'm grateful I'm getting to see him again, of course. But it's taking some adjusting.

you know telling people not to do something is going to make people want to do it more.

Yes, well.

Now they've been warned and have no excuse for when I scold them.

i suppose.

although are you going to be able to know who to scold?

I'm planning to go there every night until it's resolved, so

Hoepfully~?

you don't sound so confident.

Admittedly, I am dealing with people who have powers and talents that I've never even imagined.

Your point is noted. I'll beg my father to help out.

i understand that sentiment, at least, as someone who doesn't have powers.

[ She's just an actress, after all! ]

well.

i suppose it's good you're asking for help.

Sorta?

It's weird. No one's asked me for help lately. Maybe they know something that I don't.

[ ...

She's seen the other posts, even if she's still very much out of the loop. Well, that the very least, she can offer another option. ]

or maybe they don't want to rely too much on a kami.

well. nobody's gonna get anywhere on speculating the 'what ifs'.

[ But- ]

do you want people to ask you for help?

Of course I want to help.

All of the Fallen Stars are strangers in this world. I feel like I’m in a position to offer help and guidance, so it makes sense to go ahead and give it. It isn’t like I’m unreliable and can’t handle it.

But I get it. Accepting help is hard. Especially from someone who you’re told has authority.

trying to rely on someone who's in a position of authority is hard, trust me.

especially when you're dealing with a bunch of teenagers and young adults.

Might as well tell us the question.

Well.

I picked up that book last month, you know? To check what was going on...

And I guess

I found out that I'm not a very good mother.

[He somewhat regrets asking. He doesn’t know if he’s giving the right answers or if he’ll just make it worse. He can’t be objective about it. He’s hurt and felt angry on Yuuto’s behalf. But he loves them both and he knows Satou would never do something to intentionally hurt any of her family.

He just wants them to both be happy. If he can help resolve it-]

It’s complicated isn’t it?

~~He loves you, you know.~~

I think that you want to try now would mean a lot to him. But it’ll probably be tough for you both at first. Not everyone makes that kind of effort, so don’t waste time getting discouraged. Have you thought about talking to him?

I'm not sure how to.

I've missed out on so much of his life. It felt like I was always chasing the idea of what a 'mother' should be to him.

And now I'm finding out that the 'mother' I was trying to emulate said such awful things...

What if he just wants to forget it? Maybe I shouldn't bring it up...

[Now he’s even more confused and is starting to feel guilty. But that’s not important right now. Satou and Yuuto have even more in common than he thought, but he isn’t going to reveal Yuuto’s insecurities and what’s deeply personal to him like that.]

No, I think you should.

He needs to hear it. You both want to look out for eachother, don’t you. But you both need to be honest. Otherwise, misunderstandings are going to keep happening.

Do you think so?

I can’t figure out if I should talk to him as a mother or just like

A familiar friend, I guess?

He moved out recently, so maybe he doesn’t think of me as a mother at all. I guess that I am pretty young for a mom to a teenager.

Trust me, he hadn’t stopped thinking of you as a mother just because he moved out.

[And that’s also his fault. ]

Don’t try to fill a role at all when you talk. Just say exactly what you said to me, as yourself.

I could try

Waaaait.

How do you know who I’m talking about? I’ve never talked about this except like

Inaba-chan and Fauna-chan know.

[Fuck.]

I uh

Read the book.

eeehh

I think you're lying.

I'm

IM LYING!!

I'M NOT LYING!!!!

[Panic.]

you gonna be okay handlin it on your own, love-sama?

i didnt do much last month, i could standby

It’s alright. I’ll ask my lovers and father to help out if I need it.

Really, I shouldn’t be asking you Fallen Stars for anything but patience.

problem is some of us arent that patient, we're rarin to go

tho i guess its more the childrearing you could use a hand with right

That’s true. And I can’t complain. I was pretty proactive as a teenager myself.

Ah.

Yeah that’s

Unfortunately, there don’t seem to be many parents here, so! I don’t know how to even start asking for help with it.

[ boy, does she know that. ]

cant tell ya i have kids
but i imagine raising kids from another timeline isnt too different
you screw up, you learn from it, you go right back to it

Yeah, that’s kind of how I figured I’d approach it at first. No parent actually gets a manual or anything, so I figured I was on even footing with anyone else.

But then last month

I read a story about one of his mothers. One of my son’s other mothers, another “me,” who tried to raise him

And I found out that I hurt him.

I think

Maybe he’s been hurt a lot and never said anything to me.

I'm not a parent, but... If you need an ear, I've got really big ones!

Aw! You’re so sweet!

But I really don’t know how I’d even start.

It’s all so strange. I can barely sort the problem in my head, let alone a solution.

Hm... Maybe you should try? I did do a little bit of therapy when I was younger... They told me that if I couldn't sort out the problem, just try to talk out my feelings on it and see what comes out.

Therapy, huh? Mikky does that too… hm.

Okay, well.

I read that book from last month. I was worried about how it was made and wanted to find clues.

Instead, I

I read that I’m terrible mother.

I read a story where another “me” hurt my son.

Oh... That book that's been hurting everyone. I'm sorry... That's really tough. But it's not you, right? No matter what happened What happened in another timeline doesn't mean anything about this you, does it?

I don't know...

It's true that I won't ever be the mother who gives birth to him. He would have been born this year and I couldn't

But that doesn't matter. I feel like I've failed him as a mother. I just let him carry those feelings around and I never notice.

dont worry about it too much mirrorme i mean i got it i can clear out any problems in there

The confidence is a nice breezy change around here!

But it's the same for you, right? You can't do things alone, no matter how strong you think that you are.

nah its cool im used to fighting mirror monsters theyre the worst but i know how to fight them

If there is a spirit in need of aid, especially one who's been harmed by that scum twisting Rumours, that only means we must do what we can for it.

You're all a really kind bunch.

But aren't your spirits harmed too? Just being forced here is so cruel.

It is. But at least our spirits have our support. One such as MirrorMe has no one -- the true masterminds must be seeking lost souls to exploit.

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