[ Deep breath. Her head fills with useless memories, about wasting time. She types... ]
It's not. It's not a waste of time, and it's not fine. Any day where you can still wake up and still remember who you are isn't a waste. You were pushed past your limits, took on way too much, and needed that month. Disengaging isn't a bad thing.
You understand though, right? In a place like this, away from your friends and family, you have to cling to any amount of happiness you can. You have to hold on to something, because the world will just get colder and more unfamiliar to you if you don't. You'll crumble... but that doesn't mean it has to stay that way. Taking steps forward to find that happiness, to find a moment of peace is terrifying, but it's worth it. Even if it seems unrealistic, even if it would change everything.
Sometimes, to stay afloat, you have to be selfish. You have to pass on responsibility to someone else, you have to take time away, and you have to stop to have a good day with good people. I've never once thought I was wasting my time around you. I thought it was worth it, just to try to learn a little more about you.
...Inaba-san. I'm so sorry that I forced you into this. That I'm still trying to push you. I don't have the right to do that.
Just... tell me that you don't want my help or advice or anything like that, and I'll stop. I promise.
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It's not. It's not a waste of time, and it's not fine. Any day where you can still wake up and still remember who you are isn't a waste. You were pushed past your limits, took on way too much, and needed that month. Disengaging isn't a bad thing.
You understand though, right? In a place like this, away from your friends and family, you have to cling to any amount of happiness you can. You have to hold on to something, because the world will just get colder and more unfamiliar to you if you don't. You'll crumble... but that doesn't mean it has to stay that way. Taking steps forward to find that happiness, to find a moment of peace is terrifying, but it's worth it. Even if it seems unrealistic, even if it would change everything.
Sometimes, to stay afloat, you have to be selfish. You have to pass on responsibility to someone else, you have to take time away, and you have to stop to have a good day with good people. I've never once thought I was wasting my time around you. I thought it was worth it, just to try to learn a little more about you.
...Inaba-san. I'm so sorry that I forced you into this. That I'm still trying to push you. I don't have the right to do that.
Just... tell me that you don't want my help or advice or anything like that, and I'll stop. I promise.