And I have killed more people than I can count. Indiscriminately. And would have continued to do so had I not been bound by my word not to.

You say these things in past tense, however. You clearly regret what you did.

True monsters would not regret their actions.

[ He points this out evenly, crossing his arms. He's never much understood her transformations, but he can get the message. ]

That is not to make light of your suffering or the suffering of those you hurt. Merely that you had reasons and are making an effort to change. In my mind that makes you different from a monster.