I've ruined lives. I deluded myself and said it was for a better world, but I hurt so many people, and destroyed so many lives.
If I just forgive myself and accept happiness, then what does that mean for those people? How will they get justice? Do I just smile and say oh, sorry, but I deserve happiness too, so they can't do anything? They can't be angry at me anymore because I changed while I was off in another world?
It's not just. I can't receive kindness or be happy. Not until I've at least made up for all I've done, and done as much good as I did harm before.
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[Fauna folds her arms.]
I've ruined lives. I deluded myself and said it was for a better world, but I hurt so many people, and destroyed so many lives.
If I just forgive myself and accept happiness, then what does that mean for those people? How will they get justice? Do I just smile and say oh, sorry, but I deserve happiness too, so they can't do anything? They can't be angry at me anymore because I changed while I was off in another world?
It's not just. I can't receive kindness or be happy. Not until I've at least made up for all I've done, and done as much good as I did harm before.