Unfortunately, you may be right. He's a healer, but I've never wanted him to try to be like me. That's dangerous for anyone. So I'll try to limit myself every now and then for his sake. [His foxlike grin doesn't falter, however. And don't get him started on suicide.] ...But hey, do what you must if I mess up. Fun or no. I'll accept my punishment.

[If there was Momming there, he Does Not See It. Let's not get into Dazai's Copious Parental Trauma here. It's...a lot. He does, however, get the recovery flirt. That's more comfortable.]

And I'm glad we can agree on that. Even if I often separate myself from the humanity I hardly understand...it's wonderous to see. ...Atsushi's my greatest window into seeing that all for myself. [Like family, that boy is. But also his greatest window into humanity. How happy humans can be, how it can be to truly care...that much.

It's something that's made his emptiness fade a bit with time. It's still there. But it's lesser. That's all he could ask.]