... I see.

I don't know much about forgiveness myself. I've tried over and over to forgive those who used me. This city, which acknowledges spirits for usefulness... I don't know if anyone could tell me apart from the other spirits, unless I did them a favor.

So yes. Maybe you don't deserve forgiveness. Some people are just like that. Good that you figured it out, I suppose. Perhaps watching you suffer into your misery will bring that person some peace.